Whole30 Day 9 – Faithful Prayer

“Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe.” – Mark 11:24

I’ve been struggling lately. With a lot of things. And as a result of my struggles I feel like my prayer has been struggling a bit too. In my heart I know that God is still here – he hasn’t forsaken me, he hasn’t turned his back on me…yet I can hear the desperation and frustration in my voice when I cry out to God, “Why is this happening? Why aren’t you giving me what I ask?”

I read a devotion the other morning that spoke about prayer. Specifically, praying with faith. Faith that God will answer. Faith so strong that when you pray you can thank God for the answer before he’s given it to you. And I realized that I don’t often do that. I know that God will bring me through my trials and I will come out the other side unscathed, but all too often when I pray there’s that little niggling voice in the back of my head saying, “but what if it doesn’t happen? What if I’m not praying for the right thing? What if the answer isn’t what I want? What if what if what if?” And I’m sucked into this vortex of second guessing and anxiety and fear and not so much peace.

George Mueller said, “The beginning of anxiety is the end of faith, and the beginning of faith is the end of anxiety.” Oh, how I long to live my life with a faith so strong that there is no anxiety in my heart!

My Day Nine Eats:

eatwriterunrepeat.com | whole30 eggs in pepper rings

Breakfast, 0645: It may not look like much, but breakfast today was a hamburger patty, topped with spicy mustard, then a healthy dollop of (what else?) leftover chili, and then an egg fried inside a sweet pepper ring! Don’t worry, we’re finally out of chili so I’ll spare you any more unappetizing pictures, but I’m pretty impressed with how many different ways we used up the leftovers! This breakfast was pretty simple, yet the meat and the eggs made it super filling! Probably could have used more veggies this morning, but we’ll let that slide.

Lunch, 1130: Since Kevin and I were both home for lunch today we took stock of our fridge and ran with what we could find. I had a grilled chicken thigh and leftover roast veggies from last night’s dinner, and Kevin topped a hamburger patty with mango salsa and avocado and sauteed a bag of frozen vegetables in some coconut oil. Easy day!

eatwriterunrepeat.com  | whole30 chicken stir fry

Dinner, 1830: I was on my own for dinner and wanted to do something a little different, so I pulled out a ton of vegetables and whipped up my favorite lazy girl’s dinner – a stir-fry! I sauteed shallots, yellow squash, carrots, cauliflower, bell peppers and snap peas, tossed it with some vietnamese fish sauce, and added diced cooked chicken at the end. Normally I prefer my stir-fry with shrimp, but we haven’t been able to find any good quality shrimp that doesn’t cost an arm and a leg and so I’ve had to make do without. The grilled chicken substitute was pretty darned good though, and I think between lunch and dinner I made up for my lack of vegetables at breakfast!

Day Nine Overall: Meh. Crazy headache that didn’t go away all day. I’ll leave it at that. (Still no cravings though, which is starting to make me wonder if I’m not sneaking junk food in my sleep?)

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Prayers of Petition

How often do I find myself praying for God to give me something I want, instead of asking for it in God’s will?

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Oh, how I struggle with this. As I mentioned a few weeks ago, The Husband and I have been doing the prayer in the Bible devotion plan from SheReadsTruth. As you can see, we’re a little behind in the plan – we sort of got behind last weekend when we went to the beach.

Anyway, the first part of the devotion focused on prayers of praise – simply taking some time to thank and praise God for the things he’s given you. That’s been a good learning experience for me, because heaven knows it’s easy to cover up all our prayers of praise with prayers of need and want.

Which leads us to the next part…which focuses on prayers of petition. Specifically, praying in petition according to God’s will. Instead of asking God for what we want, we must focus on what His will is. That’s not to say we can’t ask God for what we want…but we need to recognize that what we want and what God’s will is for us may not go hand in hand.

<insert huge sigh here>

This hit home for The Husband and I this morning. We’re in the process of trying to find a new place (we need something bigger for when Baby Bear stays with us), and it’s been frustrating to say the least. We’re coming up on crunch time – and we just found out our realtor is going away for the weekend. So yesterday on a whim we found a place that we love…but there’s a chance it won’t go through. At first I was mad – frustrated and upset and sad and stressed…whining to God and begging him to let his work out…and then we read one of the verses from the devotion this morning.

“He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.’” Luke 22:41-42

Did you catch that part? Yet not my will, but yours be done.

Um, wow.

Even Jesus prayed for something he really, really wanted…(hello, not dying!)…but he asked for God’s will be done, not his own.

And I’m freaking out over maybe not getting a house I really like? Hello, shame and embarrassment.

Why is it so hard to leave things up to God? Clearly, He knows what He’s doing. And yet I still want things my way.

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Thank you God, for this reminder to bring things to you – and not my will, but yours be done. Amen, and amen.